Well, I am always thinking that AM I LONELY?? I think I am. Because I always felt that the friends I made at school are all unwhole-hearted... These days, AnQi and TsuSin are like, well, evading themselves from me. I don't know why, but I felt that feeling since the day AnQi and TsuSin told me that there is a secret that I must not know or else our friendship will BREAK. I knew what the secret was. I knew it before they two tell me this. I am not hating TsuSin at all, REALLY. But I can't understand why TsuSin nowadays is behaving so strangely, and never talks to me anymore. I hate that feeling of being LONELY. I admit that, I AM one of the OVER-GOOD-PEOPLE in this world. I always be good to people just to make sure that I am not lonely wherever I go. I have many cognitions, but, I felt empty in my heart. No one ever helped me for once, even though I always did my best to help others. It's really, a very very uncomfortable feeling. I sometimes felt that I am like Kiritani Shuji for Nobuta wo Produce. Shuji is a guy with many friends and well-known at school and he is also one of the OVER-GOOD-PEOPLE in this world. At last, his ONLY & TRUE friends are only Kusano Akira and Kodani Nobuko. Just like me. Sooi Sheng Ping is a girl with many friends and quite well-known for her drawings and her "kindness" and she is also one of the OVER-GOOD-PEOPLE in this world. Her ONLY & TRUE friends are AnQi and TsuSin. But now, it's not like that anymore. Will our friendship last long, eternally? Or will I be lonely forever and eternally?? I don't know...........
Smile always | 21:59
Saturday, July 4, 2009
「None Of Us want to ruin our friendship」って全部仮面の言葉でしょ？