During the literaure class, we read Tonight I Can Write by Pablo Neruda.
"Love is short, but forgetting is so long" was the sentence that touches my heart.
I admit that I still think of him.
3 months. Short.
2 years. Long.
AnQi's bebe asks me one day, that whether I still like Khai Soon or not?
Should I say yes?
Or should I say no?
When I saw this question, I asked myself
"Kin-chan.. Khai Soon or Khairul?"
Yea.. I still couldn't forget about Khairul.
Although we are separated and can never be together again.
My classmate, Farahin, told me this Monday, that she saw Khairul at Perfection on Saturday.
So I lied to her that he told me he that saw her on day that too.
And Farahin was kind of happy and excited.
I felt so jealous.
I don't know why.
I always had the feeling that Farahin likes Khairul. (Or maybe she really does?)
Because the first thing she said to me during the re-open of the school was
"Hey, Sooi~ How much A's did Khairul get? Did he enter Science?"
And I was feeling irritated.
I feel like hating Farahin.
But I couldn't, she is a good friend.
I told AnQi that if Khairul and Farahin got together, maybe I'll cut off my friendship with Farahin forever..
Am I too selfish to do this?
Okay, back to the topic..
I no longer love Khairul, that's certain, but maybe I still love him?
I feel that I m so ironic now..
My first love must not be like that..
But the reality tells me, that, THIS IS THE TRUTH.
Dreams were crashed (?)
